Hannah's Journal

so i guess friends come and go and i didn’t think that she would be one of them. the person that was there for me and my tears. the person that i was able to laugh with every second i was with her. the best friend. but i guess i was wrong in her eyes and right in mine and im not giving in. i don’t think i’ve ever not talked to this person for so long. its rough but i didn’t do anything. and she can talk crap to people all she wants and she can make new friends all she wants. but were both moving far away next year and when the time comes were both going to realize how wrong and dumb we were. i guess im just not ready to give in tho. i stand behind what i think is right and this is what i think. luck be on my side i still have all of my other friends who were there to stick with me in my rough time and they gave me my space when i needed it and helped me when i asked. i guess thats all i was looking for. and if anything she made the time worse but im better now im over it. no point in wallowing over the past. im done with this.

 

so catie  told me that beth and her are the only people who post stuff on here so i dont' know really why im posting anything cause i talk to them alot anyways. but hey why not

nothings really happening. john and i are supposed to be playing basketball on friday and then getting some jamba juice. im really excited. his favortie thing and my favorite thing. good day. um thats about it tho. nothing else is happening. its spring break and i've seen carolyn and cari. i was supposed to see adam today but he ditched so i might see him tonight. but we'll see. um yea thats realyl about it. 

i miss catie being home and beth being closer but you know its ok. 

EXACTLY 5 MONTHS TILL I MOVE TO MICHIGAN!! HOO RAH!! 

im really excited. im going to miss everyone but im still really excited to live a new life and meet new people and be awy from all of the drama in elgin that people have. but its gonna be far.

ok so maybe now im all done.

I GOT ACCEPTED TO MY SCHOOL IN MICHIGAN!!!! FERRIS STATE UNIVERSITY!!! HOO RAH!!!! 

so once again i haven't been on here in a long time. nothing really great. 1. college. 2. school. 3. friends. 4. cousin stuff. 5. bff.

1. i applied to 6 different colleges (ecc, robert morris, carthage, marquette, cia, ferris state) i got accepted to ecc and carthage so far. i REALLY want to go to ferris state which is in michigan. their dance team captain got my e-mail and said that if i get accepted i should join the team. that would be fun to actually get into something. if i don't get accepted there i will probably just go to ecc. cheaper but not as much fun.

2. schools been really good. im passing all of my classes. their not too hard but im passing them. i have english first and my teacher has been at school for about 10 days and thats it. she was diagnosed with ms and a leision in the back of her brain and it effects so much that she can't teach yet shes still trying. that class sucks. i have statistics which is really easy, economics which is really easy, jewelery which is easy (ps i started a fire in that class, not on purpose tho) and then i have my foods classes which are easy like always. 

3. friends are doing good. i don't have alot again but i have the good ones. all of my foods friends are probably my favorite. well katie and catie too but at school their my faves. and thats about it for friends. their not too exciting.

4. um apparently everyone got a text for dinner but me. i don't have texting and i never got a phone call or an e-mail or anything so apparently im not cool enough to go. but the only day i would be able to go is a sunday cause i work everyday but sunday and i can't just take off for dinner. ps. beth and i are talking alot again. woop woop

5. my bff left this morning and its sad. i will miss him even tho i can still talk to him its just going to be different. 

so thats about all thats going on. kinda alot of good stuff. 


i love you all and i hope that i actually get invited to dinner like everyone else did.

so i guess im not cool with anyone in the family anymore.

beth won't even talk to me.

and apparently everyone was invited to see shrek 3 but me. way to be jerks



i probably shouldn't hold a grudge to it but you know it just hurts. i don't think i did anything to any of you and if i did let me know. i would love to fix it. but if i didn't and you just don't want to talk to me because you don't feel like it. im pretty sure your an asshole and i don't really want to talk to you at all. i guess i would be better off with out you.

so on February 15th i went on a tour to tennessee with my school. it took us 4 days to get there and a day to get home. the first day we went to west lafayette indiana. we slept there and then in the morning we cleaned there and then went to perdue university. we got a tour of the university and then we went to louisville kentucky. we went to a salvation army and we got to eat what the homeless people eat and then we cleaned the kitchen. it was so gross! then we stayed at the salvation headquarters. we got up in the morning went to uol (university of louisville) and got a tour, not as fun as perdue. then we went to the louisville slugger factory (the make baseball bats) we got a tour of the plant. then we went to horsecave kentucky. we helped clean out the theatre there. we put away some clothes and props. we took all of the furniture over to a building across the street. this building was so gross. there were dead and alive pigeons in it. it was really gross. then we went into the cave. that was gross too! then we went to the local church and we hung out there in the basement. we had a dance off. and then we slept there and got up in the morning and went to nashville tennessee. we met up with another bus there for elgin high and we cleaned a ymca. then we went to our hotel. we hung out there for a little bit. then we went downtown nashville. we hung out downtown and then we went back to our hotel. then we woke up the next morning and came home. it was so much fun. there were 40 people on my bus. i knew about 3 of them. by the end of the trip we were all friends. it was so much fun and i would do it again no questions asked. other fun stuff we did was we played bus idol. that was fun but no one was really good. other then our bus driver ray. he was really good!! he sounded like johnny cash! he was funny. if you read all of this i give you credit cause this is alot. but yea i miss you all.


ps heres a movie that has pictures from the tour. 
http://www.onetruemedia.com/share_view_player?p=23363d3076f5f14b1a4d6b

krista let my drive her buggy!!! i was so excited!!

so today was my first day of winter break and it was so much fun. my mom, krista and i went to gurnee mall... (crazy!!) we got lots of stuff... i picked out have of my christmas presents... (always fun!) and thats about it... i only slept in until 9 so thats not even that late... but other then that nothing fun is going on. im really upset in the fact that i don't get too see all of my cousins for christmas... but theres nothing i can do about it... but other then that life is good... i like a boy, his names cesar, hes in my foods class and he went to competition with me in october... his team won so he got a $10,000 scholarship to the Le Courdon Bleu in Orlando Florida so hes going so thats not fun. but other then that nothing really else. i miss you all!!

i got a request for a cousins night so everyone comment me on here their schedules for the month of december that way all of our schedules are in the same place and we will try and get together. we also need to do secret santa so we need at least 2 days... so get them schedules up and we will make a date

LOVE YOU ALL!!

so i haven't been on here in a long time and apparently you guys are still on here... and i haven't talked to you guys in a long time so that was alot to take in.... umm.... nothing really is going on here.

= im talking to shawn... and i know tab "don't take the trash back inside once its to the curb", but i know its gonna be hard to believe but its def. alot dif. i kinda took control and he knows that its not gonna happen until im ready. and its good. and i know this is gonna sound crazy because he like doesn't care about anyone but theres been a couple nights that we've talked on the phone and you can tell that stuff is dif. and that we have a dif relationship then we did before. idk he actually cares... but!! we've been talking since like august and ive only seen him once... well 2 times but the other time i was in the car and i drove past him but basically once. but i go to school he goes to school i go home he goes to work i go to work hes still at work i get off of work hes still at work i go to bed hes just calling me becuase he just got off of work. it sucks but one weekend were gonna end up hanging out for the whole weekend and then we'll just keep seeing eachother. thats how its always worked. but other then that its ok with him. when i told leah that i was talking to him in august she was mad and we got in a fight about it, basically the same fight everyone else has gotten in with me, but, we worked it out and ive talked about him enought that she really thinks that hes ok and that so far isn't gonna hurt me, which is good becuase shes about the only friend i have thats not family

= ok maybe there is alot of stuff i wanna talk about

=Jenn= shes being gay!! were supposed to be going to a cartel concert on the 14th andthe house of blues but catie and i don't even wanna go anymore... first off she invites rachel with out even asking catie and i, and not that she has to ask but like just a hey just so you know rachels coming with... no rachel told me, and then she posted a myspace bulliten saying hey im going to a cartel concert on the 14th if anyone wants to go!... way to like basically ditch your friends that you were going with, then she met this boy named natt, yea like the bug!!, and invited him to go with us... that'll be akward 4 girls and 1 boy that likes one of the girls... how gay!! and the way we found out was just her saying oh natts coming with us... GAY!!... so i don't even wanna go so if anyone wants to go i have a $30 ticket that you can buy or you could probably just have if it doesn't get better... catie will probably sell you hers too... AND this stupid bug boy got her a bear and she brought it too school and into school... who does that!! its not like he gave it too her in school, it was outside of school and she brought it in... and she always complained when people got bears or they got flowers... GAY!!...

=Catie= i like her

=everyone else= there is no one else!!

=COOKING COMPETITION!!!= This is def. the most important part of this post... and this is a very long post... so Elgin High school is going to the Illinois Pro Start invitational at Kendall College... basically what it is is theres 2 parts and 2 teams, 1 team is the management team, they have a knowledge part and then a management part... im not on that team... and then theres the cooking part, the cooking people get 2 chicken breasts, 2 potatoes, some brocolli, some salad greens, and a tomato, and an onion. and you have to make a chicken dish, a potato dish, a broccoli dish, and a salad in an hour... with only 3 people... and you have to make 2 identical plates of your dishes, so its not that easy, so since im a junior in the senior class with all seniors my teacher is putting me as an alternate, so if someone gets a cut on their hands or is eneligable, thats where i come in handy to take their place... but this is the best part one of the kids dads is a chef at AIU downtown, so he came to our school to watch us cook and then to see our dish and try it and give us his say... well he really liked it and he said that were really organized and that he thinks that we could really win, he said that we have a nice plate that is very professional looking and looks like it would take some time and looks really good, so if we win we get to go to nationals which is in north carolina for a week... free!! all food, airlines, everything is free!! how exciting would that be!! also you get like a free ride to a school in which you can pick from a list, even me the alternate gets one... so then next year when im a senior i get to go again and be the manager on whatever team i want, so im really really really excited!!

= ummm so thats it really... that was alot sorry, but im done and wish me luck on my competition its October 20th but October 7th i have a practice run at kendall so wish me luck for that too! I LOVE YOU ALL!! and if you read it all i love you even more!!

i love this girl so much!!

Thanks Beth and Heather and Justin for coming to my moms party... even if it wasn't fun you know you love me!!

ok so catie and i were sucked in and we both got neopets... don't start with up we know... blah blah blah!

Hannah- churchanna08
Catie- Tink81588

those are our names... be our friends

i went to a party today and i def. realized that i really like a boy!!

so beth and i have been talking about having a cousins night so!! heres the plan:

*for everyone going to aunt cassi's party at olive garden- after that we were talking about having people come over to our house and sleeping over
*i talked to my dad and he wasn't sure if catie and i can even go so eventually we will find out if we can even go...
*so!!...i will post something if we can even go
*also if we do go make sure you know if you can come to our house or not

I LOVE YOU ALL!!

<3-Hannah

ok so i like this boy right and his names andy... well he made up this name for me (hanada) cause he thinks hes funny... well he decided i should change my myspace name to that. So!! 3 nights ago we were talking online and he said that he was amazed that my name was still that... well then we ended up making a bet that if i found a fun name for him he would change his to that and i would keep mine... so catie said how about handy andy... so i told him that, he didn't like that. so i had to keep thinking. well so then we ended up talking about who we like and i said i like a football player whose handy!! and he didn't get it!! he was like what?! so then i finally was just like its you and he was like me what?! so i just said im gonan go to bed

THEN!!

last night i was talking to my friend Katelyn and i told her the story and we decided he should have a country name too... (hanada-Canada) so we said how about andyland like ireland but then it also sounds like andy land like candy land which is like the best game ever!! (ask beth i used to make her play it with me) and so i sent him a message saying that and i looked later last night and he changed his name!!... ok well it might not be that exciting to you guys but it was for me!! it like made my night!!

thats it!!

so i pretty much am in love with catie! she's the coolest and prettiest person i know! i wish i could be just like her! she has the coolest clothes and the coolest shoes... and she just is pretty much amazing!

i also wish i could be just like grandma! being able to bitch that much is a gift! the ability to look on the down side of everything that happens to you and happens to others is a real blessing! and she can walk on a cane!!!! thats just the coolest thing ever! and her cane looks like a stick from the back yard that she carved herself! do you think she did? if so... man i wanna learn how to do that to be just like her!

oooo and justin! he's seriously the coolest thing ever... sorry but i can't make fun of him because he seriously is!

ok i think that i'm done making fun of people! uummm yea!

hope everyone has a great day!



ps--- this was actually catie --- so grandma can hate me if she wants!

so idk whats wrong with me but like i just feel dif. and like im just not doing good in school my friends are pretty much not the best and like i feel like im failing at everything and im just a person whose there. i don't fell like i have any real friends and they just always tell me im doing something wrong or that im basically not like them. and i don't know what to do. im seriously like gonna fail alot of my classes and its def. not good. and i have an honors class and an a.p. class next year and i don't think that i can do it and i don't wanna fail that is totally gonna hurt mhy gpa and everything. and i think i also don't even wanna be a chef anymore. i know that i could do something that can get me further in life and i could do more with my life. idk what to do anymore!

guess who you all get to see today!!!???